For the first time in my entire life, I absolutely seriously hate everything I'm doing (except for Rem). I hate OLA. The very thought of it makes me want to kill myself. I hate it with a vengeance. And then I feel guilty for saying so when I meet with clients na kawawa. Which makes me hate it even more. With the exception of Rem, which I really like, and Pub Off which I'm neutral about, I hate law school. Maybe I'm not cut out for this. I'm the epitome of mediocrity. I purposely avoid any law-related conversations like the plague. Well, those that I don't hae to engage in, anyway. I'm not interested in the intricacies of the law and shit. It makes me want to puke my guts out. But then again, it's too late to quit. Duh, 4th year na. And quitting is not an option for me. There's too much at stake, my ego and my self esteem first and foremost. Yes, I admit I'm very selfish. But hey, that's me. Guess I'll just slug it out for the next couple of months (and then the bar) and figure out where I'll go from there. Always works.
Also, in addition to the minor irritation of a long overdue explosion of a domestic peace and order situation, I'm in this cold war a.k.a. minor tiff a.k.a. I think he hates me sort of fucked up misunderstanding and blown way out of proportion little shitty sonofabitch situation with one of my closest guy friends. Arggh. I hate my life. My life sucks.
